yesterday and today was great. went for drama. and i'm confirmed playing the DOG. call me Cane. haha. i have a huge problem with the barking part. haha. but drama is great. we joked ALOT. kah ming is just so adorable pls. we're going to perform for the art fiesta. yippee. i'm so EXCITED and FEARFUL. ahh. (: never mind. i must keep my mind clear. learn my lines. get the italian accent right. and BLOW people's minds away. haha. my debut k! haha. next practice is after school reopen. can't wait! (:

tomorrow i will go for my HUMANITIES camp. 3 days of toruture. haha. don't know actually. hope it will be as fun as last year. blah. haha. better pack up or i'll forget to bring all the important stuff. ahh. (:

see you in 3 days. if anyone even reads this...

today is simply a magical day. firstly, me and MUM went to plaza singapura to buy some stuff. went to TIMES(my favourite hangout eventhough there's mainly books there), spotlight, barang barang and LOADS of window shopping. (: haha. we shopped for 5 hours! crazy. then my mum wanted to go little india to buy thosai. but i forced her to buy TERIYAKI burger. (:

on the way home, met up with fang ning and also, my DAD. went to ang mo to buy things. whee. bargain shopping is the best. (: blah. then went to McDs to eat with MUM and DAD. happened to see syaiful(sec 1) there too. haha. he always seem to wear the same shirt. -.- then we decided to call my 2 bros. ate at McDs and then KFC. haha. we're hungry people.

NTUC was great. bought so many things. peel fresh, HL milk, chocolate fudge cake(yum...), so many things. and not forgetting, JASMINE green tea. (: whee. i guess my MUM and DAD stopped fighting. they're beginning to talk again. whee.

LIFE's falling back into place.

blah. today went to fawlyana's house to celebrate her EARLY birthday and the open house. her mother catered food so better just show my face for the FOOD'S sake. (: me and azian met up first just to eat TERIYAKI burger. haha. i have an insatiable craving. i want to eat it AGAIN until i get sick of it. the BBQ taste and grilled to perfection. the SWEET and SOUR are set to perfection. AHHH. it's the ultimate treat. haha. i'm describing a $3.50 burger. i must be going mad. (:

well, at fawlyana's house. we ATE. and afidah arrived too. but she had other company. that yassin, idris and yassin and their other friends. fawlyana blew the candles but it keep on lighting up again. ahh. CREEPY. haha. then we pop POPPERS and everyone sabo-ed idris. his 'PEREFCT' hair all messed up. the cake was so... AWESOME. 3 layer chocolate cake with thick layers of smooth chocolate icing and chocolate filling and decorated with chocolate sticks that are crunchy and delicious. HEAVENLY. after that we went back. (: haha. almost 6pm already. MUST WATCH TV. i'm a counch potato. (:

I really hate having siblings. especially, when you're the third child. my brother just got back from the english camp. his such a nuisance. no more peace cause his the second child and my mother's favourite son. PUKE.

because of him, i get scolded everytime i shout because he disturbs me. i have to use his dirty torn books. i don't eat properly because he disgust me. i've got no privacy. i've HAD IT. maybe i'm just jealous... ahh. think about it. my brother has already completed his 'O's. my new year is arriving soon and they're not even bothering to think about my BOOKS.

i hate myself. haiz.

haha. chalet was one of the most lamest thing EVER. me afidah SHU xinhong chantel shimin and kailing met on the bus. YAY! intentionally though. (: the BBQ was at 5pm so we went out at 3 and reached around 4. HAHA. -.- we went there, paid $1 and went to our 'cabin'. it was so FULL. it's like in a maggot's den or something. everyone was squished in the TINY room. GROSS. nothing much that we can do. so we ate at McD. (: the grilled teriyaki burger is YUMMalicious. -.-

after that, they decided to cycle. haha. me and kailing stayed back. it was still raining (actually drizzling) and yet they wanted to start BBQing. who cares right? poor thing evan had to show that caleb how to apply the butter. i saw the fire like burn evan's hand. WOW! haha. but the chicken wings are so YUMMilicious and chao tar. (: haha. lijuan go and poke the chicken until there's barely any meat. haha. LOL. caleb and graham worked 'nightshift'. BBQed chicken like crazy for hours. while the rest ate so much. HAHA.

crap. reached home at 11pm. crazy. i smell like chicken wings. this rocks.

after reading felix's post. i realise just how much a lie i've been living in. (: haha. who cares right? next year, i'm going to be well, more ME. sec 1 was just a dream. meeting LOADS of new friends, thinking they know me. but i think i'll trade ALL of that for something more important. MYSELF. as selfish as it might seem, i don't need friends. i need BESTFRIENDS. well, got that already.

next year, no more TAKING CRAP from prefects. sick of them. if they give me demerit points, i need CLEAR explainations. WHY? i got caleb to be my spy. HAHA. (: i seriously dont get it. shouldnt normal unfavourable people like me be given a freedom of speech? -.- if i were to say something to those prefects, they consider it defiance. WHAT? shit faced. ARGH.

me, my MUM and bro had a really FIERY debate. my bro is well, sec 4. so when he went to the school to see his teacher for a SHORT WHILE. . . the stupid guard saw him wearing this khaki pants, and asked him to change. WTH! we pay this person just to be a fashion police. we taught of ways to defy him. but my bro is a SISSY. so he went home. LOSER.

i'm going to be myself. let see how others react to it. this is going to be fun. (:

today is a really really really HORRIBLE day . well my dad broke my mum's glass . so they quarreled . then my DAD well threw a tantrum . . . broke a whole cupboard of glasses and cups , and the table's glass cover . my crazy brother took pictures of the "crime scene " . -.- but seriosly , you should have seen my dad's eyes . they were really well . . . ANGRY . so i couldn't help it . i cried . man , i'm so vulnerable . got over it now . but . . . mum and dad are not talking . maybe they'll be sleeping in different rooms . this is so SICK . -.- i hate it . lindsay lohan has this song called Confessions of a Broken Heart it really suits the mood . . .

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter
I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
A family in crisis that only grows older

Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am broken but I am hoping
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am crying, a part of me is dying and
These are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

And I wear all your old clothes, your polo sweater
I dream of another you
The one who would never (never)
Leave me alone to pick up the pieces
A daddy to hold me, thats what I needed

So why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don't know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me
Cause these are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

I love you,
I love you
I love you
I....!!!!!
I love you!!

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don't know you, but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
Tell me the truth...
Did you ever love me!!!?
Did you ever love me?
These are.....
The confessions...of a broken heart

Ohhh....yeah

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter..

fridays rock . me nadiah afidah and fawlyana went out today . (: watched HARRY POTTER and the Goblet of Fire . me and fawlyana had a HUGE crush on VIKTOR KRUM . at first , he didn't look too hot but who can resist his accent . YUM . (: but i think cedric is hot too , eventhough he DIED in the end . me and afidah keep on spilling the popcorn cause we were a bit too engrossed on some parts of the show . haha . BARTY crouch jr. is just as hot . DRACO malfoy too . but no one wants to agree with me . haha . but overall , the story isn't too satisfying . the director cut out ALOT of stuff from the book . what a rip off ! haha . i think the chamber of secrets is one of the best . hands down . (:

after that we went to TIMES . just to buy pens . (: we ate at burger king . WHOOPERS are so YUMMY ! later walked around PS . then went to COMPASS POINT . afidah pierced her ear . NAUGHTY girl . sheesh . haha . walk somemore . me nadiah and afidah looked so lost cause we were walking around in circles . so LAME . (:

i am not dead okay ! i think i'm really crazy , i already studied my first chapter for AMATHS . i took 2 months just to study the FIRST CHAPTER . crazy right ? and i still don't understand . KILL ME pls . anyway , life stinks . it's so BORING without school . i'll rather have 3 lessons of science than well , sleeping at home and watch TV the whole day . HAIZ .

hari raya is awesome . i guess . going to spend away ALL my money . I DON'T CARE . i'm DYING to watch HARRY POTTER and the GOBLET of FIRE . and . . . i'm watching it TOMORROW . WOOHOO . kill me pls . so excited . read the book already , but i don't care . after that , going to splurge on unnecessary things . YAY me . (: and eat BURGER KING . and go to TIMES . spend at $50 or so then we go home . I hope that's what going to happen. i'm going to have a great time with nadiah afidah fawlyana and tengku . NO WORRIES !

you know why i haven't blogged . i've been sleeping and doing nothing at home except for some random study urges and . . . EAT . what did you expect ? -.- next year is going to be STRESSFUL . haha . whatever right ?