i just really must post this laa.

it just feels like im so distant from all the people around me. i feel as thought i dont belong. and nobody befriends me. my heart feels empty. my laughter is just a cover-up for all my emotions. i cant understand WHY. oh gosh.

i used to love going to school. looking at all the lovely smiles of my friends. laughing my ass off because of all our class jokers. but now, it feels as though i dont wish to be there. i'll rather be alone, away from the public eye. cause sometimes, im sick of the people around me. so VAIN and ARROGANT. it makes me feel so distant. im stressing on the word DISTANT.

and actually, people may think im predictable and you know me. EXTROVERTED, LOUD, love to laugh. that's not really me. i'll rather be quiet. observe the people around me. and you will be surprised how people are if you observe them REALLY closely. dont you guys see? you dont see me causing havoc in class often. i will laugh but because i forced myself too.

why i feel so empty inside? birthday coming REALLY soon. but i dont think anyone cares about it. it's just a BIG joke. 1st APRIL. haiz. dont feel like celebrating. dont feel like shopping. dont wanna face the world. dont want to make my NRIC. i just wanna be alone. i am solitary.

i alone. ME.