i've been doing this almost every single night. but recently, i've bottled them all up and i'm sick of it. so im putting it all here. (:

i realised i've changed. a little more conservative. a little more quiet. cause on my way to SP, i was sitting alone. staring at the view. i realised im unhappy in life. but i REALLY DONT KNOW WHY. i was tearing as i think about where i stand now. it feels as though i've been walking in circles. i'm not going anyway.

so, i guess i yearn for a change. i think people dislike the fact that im so extroverted and passive. oh wells. even mdm chia ask me to have more self-discipline. so if that is what she wants, that is what she gets. a more quiet girl. haiz.

cause to be honest, i dont belong. the only person in class im talking with is jiaying and jacqueline. i talk with other people but not too openly. i dont expect much from anyone. gosh. im so self-centered. talking abt myself. haiz.

karen. (: sorry for being so glummy and energy-sucking. sorry everyone for not smiling that much. for being so arrogant. for being so loud. for being TOO open about the way i feel. i'll stop it now. slowly. eventually. gosh. complicated hearts.

to YOU: i just want to see that smile you used to give me, AGAIN.