damn. each passing day seems so much harder to get by. ): my head feels very heavy. it's filled with a million thoughts racing through my mind ALL at the same time. i find myself physically weaker by the day. just very tired. sleeping is a habit not a need now. and honestly, words or pics WOULD, SHOULD, COULD, NOT show how horrible i'm feeling.


do you guys think i'm a joke? yeah yeah... i was born to be "funny". but heck, i'm tired of people thinking everything i do is a joke. LAUGH at me. i'm too tired to retaliate. why wont you just drag me across the road. see me bleed, see me in pain, see me die slowly. FK it man. i'm SO DAMN SICK!


and felix, i'm REALLY glad that you let me sit with jiaying k. i'm SERIOUSLY thankful. i feel great that i wont have to see the rest of the class. i could now see GQ and ZY eyes. why they feel so isolated from the class. mainly the fact that they dont belong. and ALSO the fact that you guys dont let them into your clique. i bet you guys dont give a damn about it. so, i'll rather not make a big deal out of it. i'm just SO SICK of you guys.


to gaylerb, i guess i should be sorry too. i overreacted? but heck laa. you treat me as a joke too right? i'm not serious. YES, i treat everything i do as a joke. EVERYTHING! so, if you're going to treat me as another JOKE, you may go with telan and gang and LAUGH your way through life. cause i'll rather be alone than have friends like _______.


i guess i said it all. i just dont want to feel bad for anything. VOMIT it all out. if you find my blog FAR too moody than the HUDA you used to know, do leave, dont link me etc. NEVER COME BACK cause honestly, i know that no one really bothered. they just say it like they mean it, BUT THEY DONT.