"...IGNORE me like they always do."

haiz. tomorrow got two things happening laa. LMSC and BIOLOGY lesson. aww. sms-ed those E1 ppl... hwaleong actually said he wanted to go BIO lesson first. in the end, said he going the LMSC. blah. honestly, i bet tomorrow is going to suck a lot.


cause i'll be going there ALONE. even if i see any of those people, they might IGNORE me like they always do. so, haiz... i wont be having a blast. no nadiah nor jiaying. i'm not sure if tengku is going or she might not even know. cause i guess i feel very XL compared to those people chosen for GOH laa. i bet they will be thinking, "I didnt know she was going," then walk away and ignore me laa. woo. even if i try to be friendly, they will talk a while, then forget i even existed. i've experienced that MANY MANY times laa. and thus, i see no use in going the LMSC thing. cause i'll end up ALONE or with someone i dont intend to get to know.


what i fear most is that they might treat me different. yes. they may change their view of the minority of us who 'cannot make it'.