Gosh, this is terrible.
I'm beginning to have thoughts about dropping out. I forsee absolutely no future for myself. Why do I come to school every day anyway? Taking long bus trips home. It only gives me more time to contemplate on what I am missing out in life. To realise that I have not seen the other side of the world, to make me wonder why in the world I am in existent. I understand, if I do get the bond, that is it. 4 years of my "future" gone. Why bother studying and doing well, if all of it is going to be wasted?
Why? Oh my...