Depressed like by 1.67 times more than yesterday because I have been pretty much disconnected from the world and people. I kept throwing hissy fits at mum cause I'm not the perfect son like my brother is. His imperfections are overshadowed by his, I guess, good looks, hardworking attitude (cause he works unlike me who has ZERO working experience), always trying his best, getting bullied, and blah blah. When you potray yourself as this vulnerable person, people around you shall try their best to protect you and to make sure that you won't cave in on your emotions (whatever that means).

What about those who are "strong"? Leave them to die when they're bleeding in the battle grounds cause you think that they can survive on their own. Watch me die slowly as I drown myself in my own puddle of blood because every one is too blind to see that I need their help too. I need a blood tranfusion right away then.

I have been pretty much independent my whole life. Other kindergarden kids have their parents' waiting for them after lesson, but not me. I knew I could go home on my own, just because I can. Similar to now, I will rather be independent doing a group project. You get more things done at your own pace, instead of waiting for others to get their part done. Like waiting for the rain to fall in drought-ladened Africa...

Just feeling a little down.

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On a lighter note, I still support Felipe Massa. Cause I saw his patient eyes while he was waiting for somebody to pull the fuel pipe from his car. Cool stuff. Yesterday was a totally screwed day for him though. Like seriously. Alonso must have kept a lucky rabbits' foot in his car or something. 14 positions up, that is like, A MIRACLE. WOOT! Anyway, it is like so much harder to get nice pictures of Massa as compared to Lewis Hamilton (cause Lewis has like puppy dog eyes & there is like about a few millions pictures of him *drools*) Nelson piquet is like hot too. (: