"I'm so whiny, I annoy myself."

Really. I have been complaining about you-know-what-and-if-you-dont-it-means-that-i-dont-talk-to-you-enough non-stop for the past few days. My days of mourning have extended to slightly more than a week. It's depressing really, to watch the people around you having to tolerate with sudden outburst of anger, sadness, drama and more importantly - all the vulgarities that accompanied the negative emotion I'm feeling at the moment.

Get your act together. You passed I/O.

On a much lighter note, a cute toddler (wearing some skimpy, oriental-print bib dress - idk), touched me. She kept giving me the stink eye. And wobbled her way to my seat. Her caretaker had to grab her and place her next to me. AND SHE TOUCHED ME - the toddler, I mean. OMG. Why must kids be so innocently cute?

I am touched.

An impromptu outing to the Singapore Botanic Gardens. Brought an awesome point-and-shoot camera, just because everyone else is doing it. An it's a good reason to get my mind off Leadership. GRRRR.

Don't mind the low quality pictures, cause I used PPT to scale them down to bite-size pieces(actually, so that they won't take years to load). Shall upload the rest (aka the ones that make me look good) on Facebook, once I feel like it. (:

Events/Things worth remembering:

1. PAUL TWOHILL & his uncomfortable sitting position.
   
2. Taking 5 buses just to get to the Botanic Gardens.
   
3. Long bus rides.
   
4. "...NEW boyfriend," said Afidah.
   
5. Gay jump photos & failed attempts.
   
6. The feeling of being a stalker/paparazzi.
   
7. Discovering the prowess of a PROPER camera.
   
8. The joy of photography.
   
9. Little girl in the bus to changi.
   
10. The song that kept ringing in head.
    

Waiting for the bus to civilization.
In a civilized bus stop. (The stop where we got lost.)
Gates are big, but what for?
Cause everyone else is doing it.
I ❤ moss-infected trees.
Just two very gay (happy) people.
AFIDAH.
NADIAH.
LOSER.

6/10 for Quiz 11. That sucked. So don't complain that you got 8/10.

I would love to stop this unhealthy way of life but happiness doesn't come easy nowadays, nor does it last any longer than a day. Fatigue blinded me of any reasons to smile.

*Bangs head* Bye.

As promised, picture with UTT. *dies* For now, I shall stop mourning about my sucky failure in Leadership. For the next 5 minutes or so...



I am (temporarily) contented.
I need to be more photogenic. Times like these, you don't second chances.

Maybe, this is my first time in a long time. But I failed. Yes, failed 30% of my CDS. I swear, I'm feeling extremely defeated now. For reasons that saying vulgarities may not be able to explain.

If I'm going to get F, why bother doing the essay in the first place? Why bother handing it in on time, just to get an F? 1197 words for a fail? What's the use?

If you're feeling happy at this point of time, and feel like you're on top of the world:
I hate you.

JOHN HOON We must not only remember him as Yul from Princess Hours. 28 years old (29 on 20th Jan, which is in 2 days time!) and he knows like 4738748923479823 languages. He does not look like his age, like seriously. & come on... besides knowing his native language Korean, he knows English (or I think he does), JAPANESE (and even released an album, or was it two) and now, starring in a Chinese drama (even though they dubbed him -.-). How many people can do that?!

AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING.
& I thought he was great in Princess Hours. "When you're hurt, I'm hurt." I have yet to finish watching the series, 6 more episodes to go. I swear, I really could feel his hurt for whats-her-name-princess. This is worst than Toma getting hurt in Hana Kimi. But I still love you Toma! I need to catch on my quality-Toma-time. But HOON is so awesome. Except when he had that hideous long, dyed hair. But still, so much respect for him. <333 Is he even human?

DIES. oh Hoon overload.

I'm ready...
I'm ready to free fall into the unknown.

Jessica used the word immobile to describe her condition and I totally agree. My whole body aches real badly. It hurts to walk, bend, sit, stand, go up and down the stairs. I should avoid the sanctuary view from the double-decked bus and just stick to the first level.

But nonetheless, the Captain's Ball game was fun indeed. I miss those days during PE though. At least people weren't playing this rough and when we say, "Good game", to the opposing team, WE MEANT IT. Shake hands and smile, sincerely.

Is it that fun to win? Meet you on 21st Jan.



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Next week, we're going to revamp the you-think-you-know-but-i-doubt-you-do *ahem*. Those who will be affected shall be informed beforehand. How will we get through this?

Wait.

We will get through this. We can, shall, should, could. Friday.

Fun day, I swear. Duty felt short because I had fun scaring people with my black stokings and eyeliner. Zack said when I stood at an area, everyone leaves. AND I AGREED! Cool. (:

8 reasons to love today:

1. Mass dance (even though Mich and me were both late)
   
2. Cute guys interested in PSY. (but will they enroll?)
   
3. Lurking at Design school
   
4. Picture with UTT!
   
5. Tage, Shababa and The Gap - & their wardrobe
   
6. Helium voice
   
7. You
   
8. JAM & HOP!
   

UTT took picture with me (and like 5 other people). But I got to stare into his eyes for like...a fraction of a second. Funny thing was this group of design guys suddenly stood behind us in the second pic. I SWEAR, THAT WAS RANDOM.

& HAKIM looked really shocked when I did my little dance. Gah, his a good dancer. Anyway, I DON'T DANCE.

Reached home early enough to watch Ifan perform. :DDDDDDD

The start of a new year. Time for one to make changes. It depends on the individual, however, whether to make the changes and actually stick with it. These resolutions. They may be easy to come up with, but the challenge of creating such positive changes will be difficult. Right now, I want to change. Resolutions are useless if you do not put deep thought into how you wish to fulfill them. So with this, I shall accompany each resolution with way(s) on how I intend to achieve it.

1 Be more on task.
I shall create a daily schedule (to include academic, social and other aspects of life). Following a schedule may be hard, so the schedule has to be flexible and not all time slots should be booked with an activity. First step now is to create the schedule itself. Also, homework and assignments should be recorded on a daily basis. Important deadlines should be highlighted. In addition, dates of meetings and events should also be recorded. I need a calender for this.

2 To spend more time with the people that matter. (as cliche as it sounds)
It's going to be hard. This is one of the resolutions that you can't avoid breaking year after year. There is always a chance of an incident to happen that prevents you from spending time with those people that matter. Be it personal or other reasons. They are the people that we neglect the most because when love is unconditional, you tend to appreciate less - as you need not work for it. The least I can do is to always pray from them, keep them in my thoughts, wish for their well-being.

3 Change an individual & distinctive style.
The start will be to create an identity - appearance-wise. In the modern world, we all struggle with our sense of identity and question, "Who am I?" If I don't start now, when will I? It's going to be tough, from someone who lacks any sense of style. Not forgetting, I wish to change my handwriting.

4 Learn basic Mandarin.
3 phrases per week. Learn to speak the right way (get the different tones correct) and also, to write it. I need a tutor - who is willing to dedicate and is passionate. Someone who doesn't give up and have the patience. I admit, I'm a slow learner.

5 Braver.
Just-need-courage.

"When there's a will, there's a way. When there's no will, there's an excuse."

Sorry. I will be busy drafting out my first book - The Great Book of Lies and Excuses: Real Lies from Real Liars. Truly inspired by the great idols of my life, I've never felt more passionate.

And besides, I got a really important TV-watching, game playing, time-wasting assignment due EVERY DAMN DAY. (just like every one else)