MJ's passing. RMB report done. Mafia Wars won't allow me to fight.

I've lost appetite, desire and any need for the past few days. I lack sleep and have a terrible headache, heartache and am struggling to get my time management right. BOF is on right now, and it's not making me feel any better. My heart is an empty room.


Butteflies Michael Jackson

I just wanna touch and kiss
And I wish I could be with you tonight
You give me butterflies inside, inside and I

All I gotta say is that I must be dreaming, can't be real
You're not here with me, still I can feel you near me
I caress you, let you taste us, just so blissful listen
I would give you anything baby, just make my dreams come true
Oh baby you give me butterflies

I love how Psychology students stay awake at ungodly hours in order to complete their projects due on the same day. Like right now.


Hungry now.

Back from subcomm camp. & went home early enough to watch BOF! Today's episode didn't give me that euphoric and happy feel, it's so full of Junpyo getting angry and all. Plus, instead of getting a heartache, I got a tummyache instead.

Yellow: Tomeitz
I swear, we need more time to icebreak. I still can't remember most of my teammates' names - like everyone looks the same, you know. The guys look the same, hairstyle the same. Girls have the same features, tie their hair the same way. IS IT MY FAULT I AM BAD WITH NAMES? I am the kind of person who remembers people by the experience/unusual encounter/special feature of a person. It's difficult to do that within 12 hours, really!

Sun burnt the nose and cheeks and it's hurting now. Hakeem should be there so that I can use his UV cream and like run with an umbrella. Day 2 wet games are the bomb. (: And I should seriously stop stoning. According to the FA, I got hit by random pails of water (as in - I got splashed with water) FIVE TIMES at SDC. Even I didn't bother to count.

READ, EAT, SLEEP, STAB SOMETHING NOW!

There is this acute sharp pain in my tummy and it hurts.
Tomorrow is going to be one crazy day. In school in the morning for CDS/Elective selection, meeting for Counselling Group Project, followed by Interview for Cross-cultural Group Project, Jamming session and finally Subcomm camp! One crazy hectic day and I should rightfully be done packing but I'm not because of my tummyache.

Somebody miss me pls. Thanks.

Too much noise at home. Renovations upstairs. Mum turned on the radio in the kitchen. Laptop playing Juno OST. I don't like noise. I do get noisy and chatty when I'm excited and nervous, but this is a little too overbearing. AND really, I'm extremely grumpy. SERIOUSLY, the goddamn drilling has been going on for 4 straight days already. LIKE WHATTHEMOTHEROFFCK RIGHT!

They've been drilling from 12pm to like now - which is 4.30PM. LIKE HOW MUCH LONGER CAN I TOLERATE. I'll stab someone if it really gets on my nerve. People should buy new houses or like en bloc the stupid flat so that people like me won't suffering the goddamn irritating drilling sound when she is trying to do her RMB 2000 word project report, and all the other shitload of work she has. I HATE MY NEIGHBOUR.

FUCK.

On a lighter note, look at my score for Karaokeparty! This is in the midst of all the noise.

7 hours, 5 markers ran out of ink, 3 people high on the smell of marker.
Today's meetup with nad and fida was pleasant. Seriously, I can never be as comfortable and as at home with anybody else. My hair was pulled back and I was in an oversized T-shirt, I didn't even bother to wear eyeliner - and I never felt more comfortable.

Nad brought her pretty acoustic YAMAHA guitar, Beau-Travis (Bo-Travis, she's still contemplating) together with her pencil capo. We jammed a little while, playing simple acoustic songs, while figuring out how the strumming pattern is like. Really love playing 'Anyone Else But You' from JUNO OST (and the song is still playing in my head at this moment!). There's only 2 chords to play, btw. Plugged in Conner too! But have yet to master the bass guitar.

We spent the whole afternoon getting the front page of the invitation done. IT'S HANDMADE OKAY. I might still be doing it now, if it weren't for them. AND WE GROUP HUGGED - I'm happy!



You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Yes, I'm referring to you RESEARCH METHOD B report! & I know I won't look as adorable as this little pale-skinned caucasian boy with that kind of facial expression (I really don't see where I'm getting here) but still, it's REALLY REALLY frustrating to complete you Mr. RMB!

Maybe because the previous report we had, we actually started with the research first. So we build up our interest. But this time, we were given the results first, and even though the handouts were extremely helpful, it seems almost close to impossible to start on the introduction. Mr. Inner Drive is failing on me because I've yet to strike an item off the to-do list.

It's already 1am and I'm still awake thinking about how to start on the Introduction or even starting on the Discussion section. Tumblr and facebook are unnecessary distractions. Wow, the study table sure is messy, no wait, the floor is messier. Must I really talk about my hair? Did I say I need a hug and a good laugh, really badly. NOW!

Sweet mother of pearls! First week of the holiday almost up and I have yet to get anything done. Really. And the upcoming week will be extremely booked with drawing invitation cards, meet-and-greet session, camp. That will mean (7 - 4 = 3 days) to complete my assignments?! It seems like ample amount of time, but I'm such a perfectionist and procrastinator that I know I might need more than that. I swear, I have a split personality. URGH.

I need a hug real badly now.

Highlights of the day (from two days ago):

1. Restringing cost a bomb. Even more than the strings themselves, sadly.
   
2. The route from City Hall to Bugis seems almost impossible, especially when you put two people with really screwed up sense of direction together.
   
3. central mall is a MAZE. & if I was there alone, I might get lost - forever!
   
4. Bought pretty badges (as seen above) from Bugis Mall and Bugis Street.
   
5. Bras Basah is an awesome place for music and the arts. & I MEAN IT. There are a couple of guitar shops there. Which leads me to the next point...
   
6. I TOUCHED A GODDAMN EPIPHONE HUMMINGBIRD. Not the bird, you prick, the guitar. And the feeling is magical, for godknowswhat reason.
   
7. Shu and I were well, swooning at all the gorgeous collection of guitars there.
   
8. Hard guitar covers are well, hardcore.
   
9. The top levels of the National Library is actually a Reference Library. We went up 9 levels of the escalators and realised the Lending library was at B1. GAH.

Anyway, at night, Bugis Mall have lights on the hugeass cloud-like thingies on it. It light up and well this conversation happened:

SY: Inter...
H: *neutral tone* International.
SY: Intern...
H: *slightly irritated* International!
SY: Interna...
H: *pissed* INTERNATIONAL!!!!!!

GAH. I'll update this later. Bitch.

/edit
Well, maybe not.

Hello. This is the 2nd day (not week) of holidays and I'm already feeling a little worried about the progress of the completion of assignments. This week is booked with meetings, outings, a wedding and (maybe) getting a hot guitar. Next week, is a "getting-to-know-you" session and Sub-comm camp. And I'm not some crazy jetsetter who can go from one place to another and not die from fatigue.

I need to strike something off my TO-DO LIST soon or my inner drive might die out and I'll practice my old maladaptive habits. Am going to drink Milo and complete my Development Portfolio (latest on Thursday).

On a lighter note, going Peninsula tomorrow to look at guitars and skinnies. :D

Today and every other day.

I have this crazy obsession with to-do list but I feel great regret that I can't rid of the lists because I have yet to DO the goddamn to-do list. I blame the internet, blogger, facebook and pretty graphics on tumblr.

That's why I like the good ol' paper and pen.

Yesterday went to Pris not-so-little-but-super-pretty-and-modern-dreamy-home with Mary and Jun Kai. We did crazy things in her bedroom. Had a karaoke party and danced our stressed little asses off. & Jun Kai (who must get a goddamn haircut, btw) freaked us out with his headbanging. Mary's reaction was very Mary indeed. I SWEAR, Pris's house is the perfect place to reenact the 'You Belong With Me' video & also, there's a romantic walkway behind her house, and lonely benches.

BBQ went well, the food was good. Thanks to the Edwin, Samuel and Joey. They were busy trying to cook the food while Mary, Michelle and me played 'Spot the difference' on Facebook. HAHAHA. It's addictive, seriously. YUM. We should do this more often.

Social Psyche was fine. Am contented, have absolutely no expectations. Now, think about Developmental Psyche and the millions of assignments due when the school reopen. That's only 14 days, but no worries - SHALL MAKE TIME!



Went to Airport to eat Popeye's. Virgin trip there (to Popeye's that is). I was expecting a different kind of shop with a different menu. Like the chicken will be more juicy - maybe charboiled - instead of it being fried. Their fries are really nice though, nicer than KFC's in fact. & design students should stop RUBBING IN the fact that they have no exams and tests. Points finger to Shahirah and Nadiah.

The coolest thing was that we wanted to go to T1. But there were many people going for Haj, hence naturally we walked all the way to T2 where we went to the viewing hall. That's when we saw this stage with the PUSSYCAT DOLLS and it states: JUNE 3RD, 5:15PM!

Today is June the Third! Even though it was only 2PM we decided to say on anyway. By 4:50PM we were already at the glass panels overlooking the stage. (I hope you understand.) Slowly people started to fill the area. The PCDs were really late, I swear. Like by 30 minutes and Jamie Yeo had to stall for time. BUTBUTBUT, eventually they did appear. They looked shorter than what we expect, maybe because their bodyguards are big, white, bald man. The three of us couldn't help but to get into fangirl mode when Nicole looked up and waved to all of us. AHHHHHHH. *insert video of me screaming with joy*


Pictures in facebook whenever one of us feels like uploading it.

Whoa. Didn't realise just how much projects we need to complete during the (supposed) holidays. Done up a To-Do list already. Will fix a schedule after test tomorrow (maybe during the 1 hour bus ride home). PEOPLE WHO GROUP WITH ME - please make yourself free or I'll hate you for not being able to make it for group meetings!

Btw, my back hurts really badly right now. And I'm only 18. I blame myself, my posture and the education system. A back massage will be good right now. 4 Salonpas-es on my back. AHHHHHH. (not the screaming AHH, but the wah-this-feels-so-damn-shiok AHH.)

It's alright to destress. Rather than waste all the effort of reading through something that you will most likely forget (decay) by the next few minutes, why not take a break. For the past few minutes, or hours of my study break - seriously, my perception of time is screwed up when studying - I have done:

1. 2 new TO-DO list
   
2. Taken a McD break - supposedly, brunch
   
3. Eaten half a mango
   
4. Drank one 'beer mug' of mineral water
   
5. Bejewelled
   
6. Drew on post-it notes
   
7. Took picture of the post-it note
   
8. Resized, edit and posted it (as shown above)
   
9. Bloghopped
   
10. Bite my fingers
    
11. Strained my eye on the laptop screen
    
12. Stared at the development psyche textbook thinking to myself, "Okay, 10 more minutes and I'll start", for the past hour (I think)

I'll probably play the guitar or bathe if there isn't anything else that I can do. Need green tea, really badly now. Need de-stressing pills now. Need to sleep now.

Good luck all.