I love my desktop fortune cookie, btw. I need a name for it/him/her. Something oriental. SHOE, I need your help! Anyway, there's really nothing to blog about nowadays. School is boring as hell. It's just so full of deadlines and cancelled tutorials. Such a waste of time to make my way to school, seriously. Update on the rashes: It's like spreading across my whole neck. The itchy hands keep touching it. It hurts and itches. Shall meet with the doc if it doesn't get better by the end of the week.

And you just wasted time reading this.

Blue October's "Into The Ocean" has been on repeat while I try to finish up Freehand Drawing. (I'm still not done, btw.) I like these kind of feel good song. It makes me all perky and happy.

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I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Seriously, my face and neck are like burning. The rashes are hurting really badly now and I will subconsciously keep touching it. (That's a lot of verbs. Fine, only 3.) It's killing me and my already depleting self-esteem. Not lovebite or STD okay! Don't be gross people. Asked my coolio parents if it was chicken pox and they went like, "No la cannot be. You already had your jab." AHHHHHH. Oh great, hello ulcer, welcome to the family.

Just finished watching The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas. I'm feeling very ): now but it was extremely enriching. And loved the cinematography and the music. Did you know, that the main lead Asa Butterfield (who plays Bruno) was born on 1st April 1997. I like.

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ACNE sucks. Why my hormones bitching at 18?

I need sleep, a lot of sleep. But what I need more is time. Spent the whole day transfering files from old Lenovo to the new Lenovo. Reorganising the shit out of the old files cause I haven't been doing that for a while and it's a real mess. I know, very anal. It's a start.

The Super Cool Desktop

Watching Ji Hoo making hotcakes got me all flustered. It's like drinking Red Bull, where the body gets all hot and the head gets high. And I smile and giggle to myself, just because. Red bull tomorrow, or maybe a little bit of Ji Hoo/Junpyo.

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I wish I could read between the lines and understand people better, finding and reflecting the meanings, true feelings and motives. You can stand next to someone and realise you really don't know them at all. You can be classmates with a person for 4 years, and realised that you don't even know their surname, what they like and what they don't. I yearn to have a complex, love-hate, deep, surreal, dangerous relationship with someone. Like Romeo and Juliet (even if I had never read the play itself). People will go, "You're 18, have fun, life is a joke." But no, I don't want that. I'm ready to move up into the next stage in life. I'm tired of finding myself. Maybe, just maybe, opening up to another will help me find my true self. 3.40AM (I need sleep and Red Bull, urgent)

This is 3 days due, btw. I'm too tired and uninspired to change and edit. Night.

1. Woke up really early in the morning and met A in the NEL.
   
2. Reached at 7am, I think. EARLY YOU KNOW.
   
3. A ate prata which tasted like weird, urgh. And she was complaining and saying that in Malaysia, it is cheaper and more thicker and filling. MAD.
   
4. Some asshole commented that I was playing around with the card, when in actually fact I was trying to get the darn screen to turn green. That person is a slut, I don't care what gender.
   
5. It was super uncomfortable on the ferry. So, we went out for some fresh air. Seriously, more comfortable sitting outside than inside. And the wind is like the bomb.
   
6. Took pictures like some foreigners (which we are). There was this group of ladies who like acted like they were the sex or something. URGH. I pull their hair then they know.
   
7. Studied like 1 sub-sub chapter of the cross-cultural textbook. (and we got tired and so, we just dozed off.
   
8. WE FINALLY REACHED! WOOOOO!
   
9. Facial, hair spa, message, and lots of shopping!
   
10. OMG. So many old uncles tried to hit on us innocent little kids, I swear. It was kind of disturbing. And they give that sly smiles of theirs.
    
11. With the exception of one very cute guy, whom said 'Hello' in my ear when we walked out of the shop. HAHAHA. Even azraini said he was good-looking. Swoon.
    
12. Halal Breadtalk - FLOOOOOOSS (If there is halal floss in Singapore, I will buy it every day), 11 Oreo donuts, Soy Joy (which tasted dry but I still like it cause it's supposed to be healthy), A&W Waffles, Mitha "The Virgin", Kotak album, a really cute dress, unusual stares, pervertic uncles, painful blackhead extraction, angry aunties, small jeeps and a really cool company.
    
13. Can't think of anymore. End.
    

I still have today for counselling report.
I still have today to study for my counselling class test, 20% godforsaken percent!
I still have today to catch up on my freehand drawing.

I still have today.

Weekend overseas getaway with A tomorrow. Next trip will be to Bali. (:

I'm excited and I know we'll be dead broke soon. But am in need of the break from the heartbreak and from the crazy world. Hell yes, I love weekends.

This is so fucking fucked, it sucks.
Motherfuck.

I'm so going to regret posting this but shit, life sucks so bad right now. Times like this, the world means nothing and the present problem is all that matters. And people who hate people who cuss and swear, sucks the shit so badly now. The bloody laptop charger won't work and my fucking reference for freehand drawing is in it. And so are the rest of the goddamn homework. This is stupid. God, I want to punch you in the face so badly. I going to miss school on Tuesday and Wednesdays because lectures are pointless and I don't give no fuck now.

CRAP.

And I can't deny your eyes
You know I tried to read between the lines,
I saw a warning sign
And then you threw me up against a wall
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost
I wish that I had never loved at all

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The stupid things we do and say. You end up in a rut and now, the only thing you can do is to move on. Tell the world I'll be okay.

I sprained my middle finger for typing so fast. Gah.

Anyway, I found my lookalike on facebook. I SWEAR. It was the most enlightening moment of my life and I like sent random messages on MSN and told (almost) the entire world about it. I could barely breathe okay.

So I requested to be her friend and left a personal message, 'I'm adding you cause you look a lot like me. OMG.' ADD ME BACK LADY!

Summarising the day, in easy, simple steps:
1. Took ONLY one bus to get to Punggol.
2. A and me waited for each other for a good ol' 30 minutes. And we were like both at the interchange waiting for godknowswho. We found each other in the end.
3. Had BREAKFAST! Shall eat Waffles the next time.
4. At A's home. Turned on the laptop and erm...tried to discuss the assignment.
5. Obviously, we failed because A's guitar was screaming, "LET ME OUT OF THE GUITAR BAG ALREADY!"
6. So we got him out.
7. D was on his way so we facebook'd and played SPOT THE DIFFERENCE.
8. Fetched D and his gorgeous guitar, Joy.
9. WE KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT. Lots of strumming, chords, tabbing. D is real good pls. Hello, little miss I THINK YOU BETTER THAN ME, can play barre chords.
10. A was excited she could tab to I Just Wanna Live and If You Seek Amy. Hahaha. Simple joy in life.
11. Karaokeparty! Got 6.2k for My Immortal (inclusive of the hiccups, giggles and all).
12. One hour of posing in front of the camera and 100 pictures. With, without spectacles. Testing out the different hues and saturation. D's the wallpaper. And he looks good in one picture and well funny, in everything else. A has pretty eyes can. And my hair did me justice.
13. Ice-cream! It was supposed to be Vanilla and Chocolate Chip but it was all Vanilla and (a little bit) of chocolate chip. Watched Kung Fu panda.
14. Finally, did a little work. We kind of accomplished what we aimed to at the end of the day.
15. I missed BOF, btw.

Zoom and swoon.

Woke up with a morning surprise. Email! With pretty graphics (fetish) - a list of 101 things to do when I am quarantined. Here's the first page, there is 78 other things on the list and I'm not going to share with the world. The more I look at it, the more I like. And the longer I look at it, the more I miss you (and I'm not just saying it). :D

For you, impromptu outings - anytime and anyday.
For you, I'll stay up just to accompany you to do your work. (distract, I mean)
For you, I open my heart, and tell you things nobody else knows.
For you, I don't mind looking a mess and know, you won't judge.
For you, I sing and you'll sing with me.
For you, I dance and know that you'll dance with me.

Amazing. What a great way to start the day.

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Quarantine is making me miss school more than ever, not the school work but the people there. The familiar faces, the friendly smiles and the chances of bumping into someone you were looking forward to seeing. Last day of quarantine today. I'm extremely relieved. (:

YES. Saturday am going to make my way to good old PUNGGOL (hopefully, I don't get lost this time). And my very cool friend is going to teach me all about t-test and ANOVA! Must get these things done during the study session - (1) RMB Assignment 1, (2) Social Psyche SDL II and maybe (3) Developmetal Psyche SDL 5 & 6.

Shall lug the trusty ol' laptop to cool friend's apartment in Ulu Punggol. And BREAKFAST, yummy Waffles. This is dumb, why am I blogging about this? Simply because...

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

I liked Avril's first album. And Ashlee's and Lindsay's. Show me the lyrics and I'll sing their songs for you. But all of them now are either married, have kids or are making some weird remarks on twitter. Gosh, I need to get a life. Day 4 of quarantine. It's making a sane person go mad. I bet when I get out of my house, the light from the sun will blind me. The outside world feel so foreign now. I don't know if I will even remember how to communicate with people. How do you say hello in English again?

Listening to Tegan and Sara unplugged right now. Day 3 of quarantine. Morning and afternoon was very unproductive. I finally read the SDL instructions and downloaded the articles. But, nothing more. Serious. However, I did take my temperature twice and practice 'Wish You Were Here' intro and chords. Can sing and strum to it now. (Great. Great accomplishments. Now talk about the progress of your assignments. GROWL.) Agenda for tonight is to complete Social Psyche SDL which is unfortunately due tomorrow. BUT NO WORRIES. It's barely 8PM now. There is hope, and time.

Tegan and Sara "Soil, soil"

Oh and I'm feeling
Directionless yes
But that's to be expected
And I know that best
And in creeps the morning
And another day's lost




3AM now. Am going to stay awake and eat. Fasting later in the day. Must be productive! & Should strike something off the to-do list. I like the satisfaction from doing that. Catch up on those chapters I haven't read yet. Will need to draw, draft love letters, and get inspired. Complete assignments. Can't tell what I might do later. I know, there's a saying, "When there is a will, there is a way." Let's hope I don't get lazy. :D

I consider myself a strawberry, you?
Day 2 of quarantine. I'm doing up a to-do list which I'm calling 'The Great(est) To-do list'. I only have 4 things on the list so far, why isn't there anything more that needs to be done? Fine, I would make myself busy. Am depressed that the laptop only have 2GB of free space and I won't be able to install the Adobe Creative Suite on it. Must get external hard drive and uninstall War of Warcraft. I have no idea where all the 100GB of space went, period. All my shit (assignments, graphics, pictures, songs) total up to less than 3GB. URGH.

Am bored. Hungry. Restless. Did I mention bored. Shall dance in the bedroom now. Thanks.

Alice in Wonderland syndrome: A syndrome of distorted space, time and body image. The patient with the Alice in Wonderland syndrome has a feeling that their entire body or parts of it have been altered in shape and size. The syndrome is usually associated with visual hallucinations.

A lucid dream is a dream in which the sleeper is aware that he or she is dreaming. When the dreamer is lucid, he or she can actively participate in and often manipulate the imaginary experiences in the dream environment. Lucid dreams can seem extremely real and vivid depending on a person’s level of self-awareness during the lucid dream

Spontaneous human combustion (SHC) is the burning of the human body without an external source of ignition.

Déjà vécu is what most people are experiencing when they think they are experiencing deja vu. Déjà vu is the sense of having seen something before, whereas déjà vécu is the experience of having seen an event before, but in great detail – such as recognizing smells and sounds. This is also usually accompanied by a very strong feeling of knowing what is going to come next.

Prosopagnosia is a phenomenon in which a person is unable to recognize faces of people or objects that they should know. People experiencing this disorder are usually able to use their other senses to recognize people



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This is Day 01 of quarantine. I foresee a very dull week ahead unless I make full use of my time to do well, homework. Fine, I'll make myself a TO-DO LIST. Secretly, I miss school and I like the ambience in class and that going for tutorials actually do help me in my assignments and well, there is Research Method B to think about. Oh no. Home is equivalent to sleep because the bed is oh so comfy. Todd and Conner are always at home waiting for me and they will definitely distract me from doing my homework. I get super hungry when I am at home but the sucky thing is that I can't go down to buy comfort food like ice-cream (which I am dying for, btw), oatmeal cookies and cheese fries. OMG. Somebody should like leave me a mysterious parcel outside my house and like make me a survival pack for the upcoming 7 days.

On a lighter note, I going to save 10 good ol' hours of traveling time.

Third O July. If you take out the crazy, stressful session in the computer lab, with a group of us (procrastinators), struggling to complete the social psyche portfolio, the day started out pretty well. HAH.

The AGM started and ended. I saw people, I wanted to see. (: I said my peace, made a fool of myself by forgetting what to say during the speech. I swear, my speech sounded like a Grammy's acceptance speech. The buffet table was wiped clean, seriously. Saw people looking their geekiest and putting in the effort to look geeky. JUN KAI, HAH! Took pictures and spammed people's cameras with my geek of a face. Left my hugeass camera on the floor. Played on Muying and Samuel's hot acoustic guitars. (I miss you Todd!) I didn't get to eat a single Eclair. And cried because it's all over.

To whom it may concern, I thank you with the sincerest of my heart.



Met up with Nadiah (by accident). So we missed the bus 8, and waited for a double decked 8. A while later, a single decked 8. Disappointed, we headed off to KFC. Just because we feel like it. Almost bought a meal, then 'I feel like going to Popeye's.' 'Really?' Nadiah asked. 'Yeah.' So off we went, back to the school bus stop. Met with Kom, and got free movie tickets to watch Transformers! Went to Bedok and bus-ed home together. I swear, the whole time I was drunk and Nadiah was super giggly. MUST. STOP. GOING. OUT. AT. NIGHT.

Brother just gave me the finger cause I asked him to make me Milo.

Timecheck: 11:09 PM

Right now, the eyes are really tired. It's starting to sting real badly. The agenda for today is to complete Social Psyche Portfolio and Freehand Drawing and still make it on time for 9 AM lesson. Rehearsal at 10 AM. Back to class at 11 AM. Lounge duty at 1 AM. Need time to prepare for speech, change attire, make-up, style the hair, get laid, go clubbing and sleep.

The brain's not functioning right. Inspiration not flowing. The drive is dying. Pimples developing. Body's unwell. Frustrated and desperate for time and sleep.

Another one of those "Up all night, got demons to fight" days. Tomorrow will be an extremely busy and long day and so I really need to get my assignments done by tonight/today. I'm really not the kind of person who leaves things till the last minute. Hence, am dying slowly now.
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I hate that stupid phrase you keep using cause it keeps haunting me and the harder I try to ignore, the harder it is to erase the thought of it from my mind. I'm going to surround myself with people who are nice and encouraging because you're everything but that. And honestly, there are times that I really want to punch you so hard you'll just stop saying it. And I'm not kidding.

Buy me a punching bag, to accompany me through this really frustrating time.

Those crazy butterflies are going haywire again.

It's 2.24PM and I really must start on Social Portfolio, Developmental Portfolio, Freehand Drawing x 2, draft Counselling Psyche commentary report, Report for Cross-Cultural Psyche and prep for my AGM speech. Time is a limiting factor. And I'm wasting time on Facebook playing Mafia Wars and Make Me a Celebrity.

COME FOR AGM THIS FRIDAY OKAY!