Days like these, I feel like there will never be anyone to catch me when I fall. And even if they do, they fail because I struggle and try to shake them away. So, they give up. It's because of this reason, I build walls - to prevent forming any kind of relationship with people. But I always let my guard down, I always let people in and eventually, these people leave and they never came back.

Feeling extremely vulnerable, very down, I don't know why. I've never gotten past this. I've never gotten over anything completely even if I always acted like I did. I may say I don't care, but deep inside, I really still do. It hurts for godknowswhat reason. What a loser. Like it matters to the world.

Don't say you do, when you don't. Please.